My Relationship With My Camera

   Recently I broke my camera and learned a bit about it as it was broken. I learned that I take better pics with my phone than my pro cam, and I found out how to take better pics with my pro cam. I had to make due with my cellphone camera. It is not an iPhone, just a regular cheap phone I got with a plan. But I needed to take pictures so it had to do. As I took pics, noticed that the pictures, be they as not clear as they were, they were amazing. THe pics where amazing and its not just because of the blur factor that smoothed out my skin, it was because Unlike in the pics I take with my regular camera, there was more life in the pictures. more emotion, more valuable shots altogether I am confident to say. How could this be? You may think, is this the new way of taking pictures? What model phone was that and where can I get it? I assure you my choice to laugh at your comment is not out of competitiveness, which I've never been a part of. No. My answer would be that it was all in my relationship with the phone. Yes, I realized I am attached to my phone and therefore I am more comfortable with it and take great pics. When I whip out my canon power shot, with its modern style and shiny, and bulky intimidating presence, I get very technical. All of my guards go up. Be careful with the camera, hold it right, press the button not soft, not hard, just enough, and be careful when you hold it at an angle so as not to fumble your hands over the lens. This takes away from my emotion. It takes away from the spark and carelessness that you should feel when taking pictures.



Yes, I am comfortable with my phone. It also goes with me everywhere.
I use my phone also, to call my friends and text them on the familiar purple screen that calms me when I'm down. its the first thing I go to when i get a new job or meet a new guy. I get excited when it goes off. That is my relationship with my phone. I'm used to it. 
   I figure then , this. If I can get past the bulk, of my Canon, and be more familiar with it,  I will feel comfortable when I whip it out. My pics will be as good as the ones on my phone, electrifying and inspiring, and with all the clarity and use of flash ( when there is a special night shot you want to capture, which can be eerie or romantic) . That makes it good enough to sell, and I will be very proud to show off my pictures.
 Just come to terms that it is your third eye. YOUR third eye. It is specific to you and it is your passageway through which you can share your world with others whom you chose. Then you can be comfortable with your camera and take amazing shots!

Side News:

Im back...

Recently ive joined a group on FB that stands up to bullying, and its actually run by a person who I wont name that used to be a 'jerk' in school but now he wants to change his future.

His motive for the group is to bring positive energy about. His words on how bullying are as follows: ( and quite amazing to me )


"The problem is it has a stigma to it (bullying) . The people involved don't want to discuss it because up to a certain age there exists "cool" and "not cool." It needs to be discussed in a completely open and not cheesy way. Someone in highschool might need to just hear "yea it sucks, highschool sucks sometimes, go away to college and find yourself, itll be fine."

I think this way is a great approach... because if we think we can STOP bullying, were nuts, its a function of youth, but to hear from someone encouraging words who has been through it, is a big help, for any victim. ANother statement from the owner is that bullying should not just be thought of with a perspective on just the bully or just the victim. But to indiscriminately approach the message of bullying as a lesson, that for example can be tought at school.

IM very impressed with this group and invite you all to join if you have ideas you want to volunteer on this thought and subject. I do occasionally. Keep in mind this group is in its begining faze and whether it helps 100 or even only 1 person, its presence on FB shows that there are people who care about bullying.
Me

Rose

Have I Found the Gold At the End of the Rainbow?

Ive been on adventures since I graduated college... Working with Autistic Kids, Overseeing a Senior Center, Going on Photo trips to the Greater NY area 3 times, going to religious lectures and Finding myself, losing myself and most recently finding myself again. I think Im ready to buckle down once again, seriously into a new job. Im looking to take a certification test to work as a Medical Assistant. After all I did graduate with a Medical Assistant diploma. We will see what happens.

G-d really laughs when we make plans. Its upto him what happens to us, and everything is connected. Just like all my jobs in the past reflect my heart, a career as a Medical Assistant could be good for me. I think I got it this time.

Update: 9-22-11

Havent added anything lately because Ive been busy with work. I actually work at a senior center now... started in July... and have a class teaching the camera to some of our clients. Today an elderly client in my class today blew my mind because she shared her pics with the class as an introduction for herself to the class, and the pics she took where amazing. When I say amazing, I mean her abilities and execution on locations, lighting and subjects... just from her travels and family... were mind blowing. She was a sweety and wasnt too caring for the compliments I gave her, and she was not very excited when I told her how much I loved her work ,but she was eager to show anyway... I think shes pleased enough for the both of us. Im just so lucky in this situation... for her to come to me for learning when she is already amazing...


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Her

Central Park

Today was a hot day in the city, not many tourists around, so I managed to get around peacefully and enjoy the non crowded park.